constantly falling
i find myself torn
wandering the empty lands
flying the breathless sky

i wished to say goodbye

no longer can i hold myself
tomorrow fades with flame
my memories blur with a haze
my sorrow glimmers with solitude

i wished for life but was granted less

i am inver†ed



"dying is easy...
living is what's hard."

captor to my soul
i find it strange to lose control
i can see
i can feel
i do

as i stepped into the room late that night my eyes fluttered
weak my body was as the setting sun's illumination
i found comfort in anguish
reasoning and the logic of my inevitability
not a breath left to say not a breath left to scream



my words are unheard

Am I still unqualified for your taste?
Arguments that still tease with my sworn disdain.

It's my own fault; weeping scorn
Still it hit's me; lying contempt
The important things; fade from memory
night time instills

painfully...
The memories race through by twilight
dreadfully...
Repeating the rotten times strikingly
tragically...
Slowly has my life faded
endlessly...
out of your memories.

exacting my worth for my struggling beliefs

Still I can feel it within me.
The selfless affection I held for you.
Never could you see through the dimming sky.
Loneliness is a feeling that consumes me.

sexual content wasn't enough
tearing down through dreams
falsehood within my feelings
the beats of my heart slowly fade

painfully...
The memories race through by twilight
dreadfully...
Repeating the rotten times strikingly
tragically...
Slowly has my life faded
endlessly...
out of my...

exacting my worth for my struggling beliefs

Still I can feel it within me.
The selfless affection I held for you.
Never could you see through the dimming sky.
Loneliness is a feeling that consumes me.


sluggishly I realize... this pretense was mine
your smile brought my already fallen heart it's final beat


sexual content wasn't enough
happiness was only a dream
my eyes flutter with scorn
as you lie breathless without warmth.

Only close friends or those I feel needed may view these entries into my life so this journal is...



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